These buttons don't all work yet, plz.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Alright, I've been working up to this point since the 5th grade -- weighted with the knowledge that my destitute family simply cannot afford college OR loans, I knew it was up to me to be a model student for the rest of my primary school academic career, so that I'd have a chance at getting a decent amount of scholarships.
WELL HERE I AM. My grades are fabulous, I've won a stupid amount of local and national awards, I r famous local arteest, I've enrolled in every single 'hard' class ever [it makes me look good even if I'm terrible in them], and I'm probably in the top 5% of my class

ONLY NOW WHAT 8| I'm looking around for scholarships and grants to apply to and I'm just . . . LOST, MAN. Like I barely know where to start, and I don't know how to ~use~ my scholarships even if I did get them. I JUST HAVE NO IDEA *brain asplodes* My school is an abject failure when it comes to FREAKING INFORMING THE STUDENT BODY ABOUT COLLEGE. We should at least have a CLASS. Or SOMETHING. I mean I've memorized the Quadratic formula, yet I didn't even really know what a Bachelor's degree actually was until like. Last Thursday.
THANK YOU, MY BELOVED HIGH SCHOOL. YOU'VE BEEN SUCH A BIG HELP.
So yeah whatever. I NEED HELP. Loads of you guys are or have been in college, so you probably know more than what I know
which is NOTHING. So, has anyone won any scholarships? Like, HOW? And what did you have to do for them? [I'm assuming most of you lot might have won art scholarships? I MEAN I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW YOU'D WIN THOSE.]
And don't just stop there. PLEASE TELL ME EVERYTHING YOU KNOW ABOUT GETTING INTO COLLEGE because I desire enlightenment.
This stuff is making me feel REALLY REALLY STUPID 8C I WISH THERE WAS SOMEONE WHO COULD TEACH ME THE WAIZ OF CAULEDGE APPLICATING. I swear, as soon as school starts my counselor is going to be seeing an annoying amount my mug ALTHOUGH I'M NOT EVEN SURE IF THAT'D BE OF ANY USE.
*RUNS AROUND IN HYSTERICS*